Real friends or not?

•January 29, 2012 • 3 Comments

Hello everyone,

I wanted to get this off my chest, so that’s why Im writing this right now.

Well I had a ex- best friend, and we were friends for like 14 years. I stopped hanging out with her, because I found her very strange. She was kinda copying me and talking like me, and I didnt like that at all. I stopped hanging out with 2 weeks or more, I dont remember anymore. But she was acting all weird and she did things I didnt like. So that’s the reason I stopped hanging out at first. But now I found something else out, what really scared the shit out of me. So, I went into her e-mail and was checking everything out. I went on there to get the pictures we had together cause I didnt have them. Well I found an E-mail she had sent to herself, and I was thinkin should I check it out or not? Well I couldnt resist, so I decided to open it. There was a convo between her and a dude I dont even know, and she never told me about him! (We were best friends and she knew everything about her, but she was keeping all kind of things quiet for me) I started to read the convo and found things that really shocked me!! She was telling him all kind of stories that had happened to me, and she told him it happened to her. Like once the neighbours dog bit me, and since then I’m afraid of dogs. She told him it happened to her. She told him more off those kind of stories.. I was freaked out! I never knew she would act as if she was just like me! She even stole my music taste, claiming that I copied her. -_-“. Oh well, back to the story. I was reading and reading, and suddenly she said to him she took some pills and that she wasnt feeling good at that moment. He asked her: “What kind of pills did you take?” She answered: “Strong painkillers.” He asked her: “Why are you taking those medicines?” She said: “Yeah I had chemo” (So she said to him she had cancer! Wich she doesnt have! I dont even fucking know why she said that!) He said: “That’s bad, both of my parents died of cancer.” She answered, that sucks. She doesnt have cancer why is she making up those kind of things up? Like she always used to come to me and tell  me she had another dissease?! I always told my sister and her friend that she was lying and she was making up all kind of disseases? She thought we would feel sorry for her, but I didnt , because I knew she didnt had the disseases. All my grandma’s and dad’s died because of that dissease, and she’s playing with that? But Im going to call her tomorrow, and tell her everything! She even told him that my family said that I couldnt hang out with her anymore because she was from a different country! Like WTF! My family loved her, so I dont know why the fuck she would say something like that? Sorry people, she pissed me off! I used to have a lot of friends but I turned my back to them just for her! She ruined everything for me! I gave her my heart, everything! I once asked her: “What would you do if some random girl runs towards me and starts beating me, what would you do?” Her answer was: “Im not going to help you, because I dont want to get in the middle of that.” I told her: “If someone would hit you, I would kick their asses! You know why?” She asked: “Why?” I said: “Because you’re my friend and I’ll never let something happen to you.” How can a best friend say something like that? Im so hurt right now. I never show my feelings, I cant.. She knew I was vonuarble, and she took advantage of it. It sucks to know that about someone who used to be your best friend. But I knew somehow, she wasnt good for me. But I just couldnt tell her to fuck off, because I loved her too much. Seems like she didnt love me as much as I loved her.

This really helped me, and I appreciate you reading this!

So friends, are not always as they pretend to be! So beware! Do some research to find out how they really are!

Post a comment or like please?

-Hidia.

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Rock N’ Roll.

•January 26, 2012 • 2 Comments

Hello Everyone,

Today my sister told me that they had to show what kind of music they like, and listen to. She said, all my classmates choose Hip Hop, Pop, R&B etc.. She choose for Skillet – Hero, wich belongs to the category Rock. She told me that her classmates were giving her weird faces. She ignored all that and sung at the top of her lungs! They asked her: Are you serious? Do you listen to that kind of music? She answered: Yes, what’s wrong with it? It’s just music. They didnt believe her, because she doesnt look like a girl who listens to Rock. Im sure they think if you look like a Goth, and wear a lot black clothes or make-up you listen to Rock. That’s not true, there are people who look “normal” and still listen to Rock! But Im glad my sister didnt take their bullshit, and sung fawking hard in their faces! That’s why I love her.
That was it for today.

-Hidia.

•January 25, 2012 • Leave a Comment

hidia

Today when I turn on my tv I only see news about disasters, leaders, people dying, people fighting. Leaders/Presidents not agreeing with their citizen. I see unnecessary fights, and people are dying for no reason. People in Japan are struggling and fighting for their lives. It’s hard for me to see that. I want to help them, be there for them. Go there and let them know that Im there for them, to help them. But it’s kinda impossible. But when I think that by donating money to the Charity MFR (Music for Relief) helps them, it does make me feel a lot better. I hope it’ll get better for the people who survived the Tsunami and Earthquake. They’ll be in my prayers. Some people lost their families, their parents, their sibblings. And knowing that hurts. Even if it’s not me. Im going to donate more money to help Japan…

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Music.

•January 25, 2012 • 2 Comments

 

nkHello there,

 

Im listening to America by 9lives/Deuce. And I was wondering this, what would the world be without any music? Have you ever thought of that? Im we wont be able to express or feelings in any other way.. Okay, you can express your feelings in another way by, dancing or acting. But somehow I dont think it has the same effect as music. Music has changed a lot of lifes, and it’s still changing people’s life! Not in a bad way though. I listen to Rock most of the times, because the bands I listen to have lyrics I can relate too. So that makes me feel like Im not the only one dealing with that kind of problem. Also the fans of the most bands I listen to are really awesome! Music, makes people happy, sad, angry, laugh etc.. When I listen to music I most of the times feel fucked up inside. And by listening to music, I kinda forget the feeling I had, and start singing and smiling. Music is that powerfull! It changes people’s life! ❤

Help Me Support Music For Relief.

•March 30, 2011 • Leave a Comment

Hello,

Well as you can see, I have a Widget on the left side of my Blog, where I support Music For Relief.  Help me support Music For relief, by donating some money to it. You dont have to donate a lot. 1$ Is enough to help the others in need. Donate NOW, and help the others.

-Hidia.

Dear Mom

•March 30, 2011 • 2 Comments

This is a blog about my mom, and how I love her.

Dear Mom,

You are the greatest person in my life, the only one who loves me a lot. You have carried me for 9 months, and gave me life. And I want to thank you for that. You are what I need in this life. Without you I would be nothing. You taught me how to walk, How to speak, How to eat, How to put my clothes on, how to wipe my ass. You taught me that I have to respect all the people, no matter what their religion, color or race is. You taught me that every person is equal, and no one is more special than me. You make me angry sometimes, but that´s part of being a mom. You´re very protective, and want nothing to happen to me. You make me laugh till I cant breath. You comfort me when I cry. You´re my number one best friend, and mom. I can share everything with you. You help me when Im in trouble. You take care of me when Im sick. You are there for me 24/7. I never want to lose you! If I did lose you, my life would be nothing! I love you Mom

-Hidia.

Disasters, leaders, nightmare.

•March 13, 2011 • 3 Comments

Today when I turn on my tv I only see news about disasters, leaders, people dying, people fighting. Leaders/Presidents not agreeing with their citizen. I see unnecessary fights, and people are dying for no reason. People in Japan are struggling and fighting for their lives. It’s hard for me to see that. I want to help them, be there for them. Go there and let them know that Im there for them, to help them. But it’s kinda impossible. But when I think that by donating money to the Charity MFR (Music for Relief) helps them, it does make me feel a lot better. I hope it’ll get better for the people who survived the Tsunami and Earthquake. They’ll be in my prayers. Some people lost their families, their parents, their sibblings. And knowing that hurts. Even if it’s not me. Im going to donate more money to help Japan, and you should do it too. MFR Is a good Charity that helps Haiti, Japan.. You can donate money to both, because both need it. And there’s this “War” going on in Libya. It’s about this small thing. Why doesnt the President just leave the country if he doesnt do anything well. A lot of people lost their lives because of the President. Some of them think he’s a dictator, and some of them think he’s not. So who can we believe. Well all I hope for is that it’s going to be over soon. Why dont they just talk it out? Violence isnt the answer to everything. God gave you a mouth, start using it, start talking things out instead of taking innocent people’s lives. Well that was it for today. Im going to write a new Blog soon. And thanks for reading.

– Hidia.